All that you wanted to know

It Is All I Ever Wanted To Say.... :)


Hmm... You Must Be thinking If It Is Personal Why Does She Put It In a Open Website.... Actually Yeah You are right... Why Must I? But Speaking Frankly... Just Wanna put down whatever I feel... My pages In personal diary is practically getting over... :D So Going the 21st Century Way... M Blogging it :)


It Is All going To be about.. Stuffs Which I badly wanted in life... Stuffs Which I've been deprived of....

Thankfully... I've got the best parents in the whole world... The best... No doubts about that... A Dad... For whom his daughter is the best...well for the rest of the world... Im trying to prove :D Who lemme do things my own way... Even I wasnt completely let off the hold... But I was completely ruled over either... My space was defined... :)

A mom... for whom I was the inspiration... In many ways... Coz She was a lil girl when she was at my age.... Me... Am A Dare-Devil :D :D she loves me for that....

Lets move ahead with what I wanna say,... Even as a child I was considered responsible.. I always wanted to be amidst people... I don have sibilings or cousins who were of my age... With whom I could share my feelings... Neither did I have any close relatives..... I still remember those painful days... When I was A kid and i used to cry when my friends use to say "m Goin to my aunts place dear... Hey this pen... Aint it Cool.? My Uncle gave me on my bday!" i always wanted to scream and say "shut up... I don wanna know... My uncle would never do that......." :'(

I always wanted to have an elder bro... who would pat on my back when I'm successful... who would take care of me from all the rude guys... Who would say "no sis... You cant do that... Lemme do It for you...." who would get me the nicest goodies in the whole world.... Who would say that I was the best The way I was...

I wanted to have An elder sis... Who could assist me in my professional tasks and guide me through all my relations... Tell me that I'm not capable... Hold my hands and help me make through the mess......

All These Things I do Alone Now......................................................

I wanted A place in my friends life that would reassure me that I can never be replaced... Whenever I told Something about them, I wished they would say... WOW! no one can get me the way you do.... You really know me.... NOoooooo.... I never heard that from anyone... All I got was.... You know what Yday... My another friend commented the same ... :') :'(

And right now... My Life is in a catastrophic mess.... Things are taking shape from Bad To Worse To Worst.... :(

Away from home... I Thought Hostel was A supposed-to-be Home away from home... But My roomates..
For some I'm a Genius... Ought to maintain a safe distance...
For some... I'm A weirdo.... They Can Never get what i Speak :D.....
For Some... I'm From Chennai... Enough Reason To stay away..
(I don get this thing though personally THOUGH.... Are all girls from chennai bad... ?? Do all of us need guys :D I still wonder)
For Some... Im not their friends... Coz I don say My personal stuff! (I need my space ppl... cant tell you Everything :D)
For Some... Even After knowing that there are going to be no girls in auto... choosing the same dept means... I wanted to be close to guys...
(If You Had Atleast Half Of The Passion Which I had... You Never Be Dumb Enough To Think This Way...)
This was the most hurting comment... I Ever got btw :)
And For some... Some other petty reasons.... Like I love to debate,... They meant I was a Squabbler... A silly kiddo... With no clear head..lol ( If You Meant What You HAve As A Clear Head... M Glad My Brain network Is A mess :D)
Thats all... Don wanna mention the rest....................................................!
Class... The Worlds.. Boredom-redefined... i don know why those people even chose engineering... And Have a useless attitude of why must girls be in my dept... Forcing Me To Quit My Dept As Soon As Possible.. ( I WOULD NEVER DO THAT) Making Me Feel Miserable... Lonely.... All In Vain! :D
Atlast.... There Was A Real Ray Of Hope.... Amidst all these Heck tunes.... But Right Now... I Don't Have The Vaguest Idea Of What State It Is In......................... :D
And At The End Of Everyday I end Up Listening to Hillary Duff and Taylor swift..... Esp This One....
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

There Are Many Things I Could Add Over Here... But I Dont Want To....
So Regards..
SWATHI.I
(I guess the last I stands For INDEPENDENT..lol )
Love And Live life
:)

Happiness....

It is a tingling feel...

U get it when an infant wraps around your lil finger...
U get it when your mum silently says take care...
U get it when your dad pats on your back, appreciating you..
U get it when your friend opens her door and hugs you...
U get it when your sibling says that they miss you...
U get it when your grandparents say they are proud of you...
U get it when your fiancee says they love you....

And I
I get it when I am happy :D
When I Am Really Happy.... :)

Today turned out to be more beautiful than what I thought.... I Understood That I Am Living A Life Which Is Probably the Dream Of Many...

Happy... Happy Coz I always get whatever I want...But in a way I never expect it to come...
Life is a real bliss... You can always be happy if U have the right mindset... I remember driven down after work the whole day.... Wondering what creature I was when I did that much work... As I stood in front of my college... My lil pup came along... And trotted in between my workshop shoes...lol :) I laughed out loud... Yea sweetie... Lets go... It is a bliss :) Im Happy that You Came Along pup... :)




For many engineering is not chosen due to selection but elimination :D Eliminating that they are not fit to be docs... And then that there is no other "decent" course in the days to come...
With the Fame For the family that their son/daughter is in an engineer...
At What cost is something I still wonder....


I still wonder how can someone actually let others take the decision of what course they ought to study... What You Study Must Be Decided Only By You.... It Is Just Like What You Eat And What You Wear... You Are Going To Be With It All Through Your Life....
And yeah... Unaware of all the consequences, they come to the Engineering colleges... I Was literally shocked to find that an electrical engineer hated circuits.... a mechie wanted to avoid engines!!!!!!! they curse the ones who found the whole thing... CURSE! :O

Studies.... I consider with utmost passion and reverence... I Remember the day when i went to the Engine Testing Laboratory.. I was amazed and utterly shocked to find that I had actually made myself that fit to be in mech.... in automobile... This shock on my face was unhidden... And my faculty appreciated it :)

Study with passion... Engineering is the only thing that would help you to understand the world around you.... It tells you how everything works... Be amazed to learn... Coz without passion everything is nothing...

So Learn...
Relish....
And
Rejoice.....!!!!!!
Regards...
An Engineer :D :D

The 335 km journey.... Based On My Experience... :)


Trichy... City Of .. Umm.. what? AArgh... cut it!! My College is over there... Thats what it means to me... Every month... till now I've traversed this route for almost say.. 8-10 times... :P So I guess... I Have much Experience To Say About This Route.... :) :)

The Start... (I'm Gonna Describe It In terms Of Roadways... btw) Is The Dusty Yet Royal Road Outside My College... :) Start From There... You Would Feel Like You Have Been Practicing to act like kareena kapoor in jab we met that song... What was that song... Umm.. Ah! thanks to google found out... :P Ah! Google... The Times You Save me ... :P :P

"Hum Jo Chale lage Chalne Lage Yeh Raaste..... :) "
yeah... that song... Same way I feel when I start From That Place... The Long Roads Bounded On Both sides By trees... esp. Eucalyptus.... Then lakes... Peacocks... Small Shops... Goats... Puppies ... :) Loveeeeeee em...

You reach an area called as toll gate... Now Why It is called so is something I still keep wondering... there aint any toll gates in there.... its just a place where the roads for the various cities split... I mean madurai and the rest of cities on one side... Pudukottai, karur, on the other... And chennai vellore on the other side... Probably I would call it something else... Anyways ..lol.... That place marks my leaving trichy.... "Yipee!!" I felt like screaming whenever I Crossed there .. "I'm Going Home... Finally!!" :D Being New To Hostel... Home meant a lot to me.... "boohoo..... I Miss Home... I Miss my Mom.... Really I Miss Them... " In The Real Sense Only a few people can always accept You the way you are.... As A Whole Package... "No Complaints, No Regrets!!" Now Guess Which Movie This Is From? :P :D

Then Half Of The Time... I sleep... :D Guess I Become tired... Anyways The Most Significant thing Once You Cross The Toll Gate is that You Will Be Able To see The Grand Anaicut... From Where You Can See The Distant View Of The Golden Rock... And the Other... The Famous Uchipillayar Temple... One View Of It You Will Decide that In Your Life You Could Never Climb That.... :D Really... I Think The Sides Of the rock were Personally Polished By someone... To Make it that steep... :P :D

Then Exit the road and hit on the highways... Both sides Covered With thick trees... Laden In The Natures lap.... :) Wavy Breeze... Me Smiling Happily... And Brushing A Hair Aside... Life Sometimes is Beautiful....

Half way along this journey... The place is full of strange tamil names... Mamandhur... Periyanur... My favourite one is Ulundurpet... As The Name Implies Vada Is Famous Over This Place... Really A Hot Vada In This Place Can Make Your Mouth Water... Then The Inn over here By The Highway.... I Guess The Name Is Hotel Anatha... The Place Is Really Good... And It Signifies Almost Half Of My Journey....

After Eating A spoonful Of food... :P I head Over... The Next Stop Is Villupuram... I Remember My Dad Saying That... Long Ago All Commuters Used To Break Their Journey Here... And Yeah The Place Is Full Of Hustle-Bustle only....\

The Next Stop Is Vikravandi... :P I Always get a funny thought that they are going to sell the bus over here... and I'm Going to walk All way back home....lolzzz :D The place is sort of good....

The Next Place is Tindivanam... Higway Inn... The place can be seen over here... But It is sort Of Deserted....

Between Tindivanam and melmaruvathur.... Would be the biggest siva lingam I'v ever seen... Seriously It would be royally and easily seen in the midst of the road... :)

Then melmaruvathur... athiparasakthi temple... and the college.... I bow my head in reverence... the view from highway would be good... Coz the place would be real busy....
Next would b the melmaruvathur lake...

This place marks my almost arrival to chennai... :)

Next stop... the 5th n last toll gate...
Next would be chengalpet lake...
Asan Memorial college.... I wish I was There Atleast for Your sake smiley :)
Sivanandha gurukulam.....
SRM University......
Tambaram...
Airport....
HOME.................. :D

And there would be my mom... Eagerly waiting for my arrival... Giving Me calls every Umpteenth minute to know where I am...
And then I would Come home... Brushing her aside and raiding the larder... Mom I'm Hungry...
And I Guess She Would Be Thinking....

"This Useless Daughter Of Mine..." lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :D :P

With Warm Regards,

The Useless Daughter... :D




VALENTINES DAY......

I Guess Love Is In The Air..... :) :) Yup I Can Sense It...

As I Walk Across The Streets... I Can Sense... How Cute It Could Feel When Cupid Strikes! :) :P

I can see people walking across holding hands, whispering love, cuddling around, smiling beautifully... In a shorter sense being happy... Happiness... That sort Of happiness Which you get when You realize that someone loves you the way you are... Loves You the way you are... Adores you the way you are... Really cares for you.... And wants to spend their rest of the days with you.....

So what I'm supposed to write in this article... Under the given title...

I have got no idea... Many of my friends got their better halves this year.... this article is just for them :) :)

This Way.... Long, Long Ago There Was A handsome Charming prince.... AArgh....!! Lets cut this crap stories :P :P Lets See What People Are Doing Around Us...(You see no longer do handsome princes Exist...pity! :P)
What are people doing...Hmmm...
Some are with broken hearts.... Broken and tormentalised by people who once considered them as the best part of their life... Tears... sigh... It hurts soo much you know... i have seen so many of them... It Is sometimes the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone... Broken hearts dont listen or understand they just Moan softly... Girls cry and pour the whole thing out... But Guys... They suffer more than anything... Afraid Of being called losers... Afraid of being called a coward... Afraid that they might become a Laughing joke... putting the same age-old Mr.I-Can-Handle- Anything... Mr. Hey-I-Never-Really-Cared... :D Torn Apart On the Inside... They Don't still give up... They still Flirt :D :P Hats Off!!! :)

Some Are Like Commited Long ago... And Yet another valentines day... Girls thinking inside.... I love you You love me... And I'm happy that everything is fine... All I wanted was you... And I suppose I was the Luckiest girl... To have you... Or did Someone tell me that way.... Yeah Jane did... She told me that kathy was also intrested in you... Oh! then why did you choose me... Oh! She was So hot... Every guy wanted her,,,, Oh! will You Leave me If You get her...
Sigh....lol so much they go ahead with their thoughts that they unknowingly ask
"Listen.... Do You remember that Kathy???"
Our Guys Never Forget A Girl... So he Asks:
"Yeah... I DO What About her?!"
"hmm... Well Nothing... Jane Casually said that it seems she has a crush on you... "
"oh is it... WHoa! I didnt know that"
"what do you mean You dint know that.... Is it necessary for you to know? Why dont you ask her out today... Em sure she still likes you...blah...blah........"
WHAT ARE YOU STILL SCROLLING DOWN???? :P :P
Sigh...... You Dont Understand... Do You
That Statement Obviously Means:::::::::
*END OF CONVERSATION* :P

Who else do I see... Well... A guy... He Is going Too Close to girl...OMG!! Just When I decide that I Needn't See Any More Of It... :P That Guy Cutely Bends on his knees... And Pulled Out A Ring... The ring was that brilliant And It shone in the moonlight... Trust me it was beautiful.... Really Beautiful.... And the girl... Why is She Crying now... Oh k... She is obviously very happy... Oh k *clap * *clap* She accepts it... WAY TO GO!!!!!! Obviously touchy touchy... ;) And Happily in his arms feeling protected, loved and cared... she walks ahead... Hoping to have an awesome future... that THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER SORTS :P :D

Feeling Bit Mushy-mashy :P I keep walking ahead.... I see A couple...Dancing beneath the tree in moonlight.... He sweetly gives her a peck on the cheek... and they cutely waltz on the street.... I guess they were married... The way she was showing off her wedding ring... Obviously meant that...
And then suddenly there was a huge crowd on the path ahead... People moving randomly.. With their loved ones happily... Swinging, Smiling and hopping around... Madly in joy... least bothered what others care about....

AND AT THE END OF THE ROAD....

It was snowing slightly... She was Sitting with a bare clothing... Which Completely dint protect her from the ice.. She was hugging herself tightly... With Hands Folded And Eyebrows Twisted In Worry...
That She May Not Be Loved....
That She May Have to be Alone....
Praying God To Send Her Special Someone.....
Praying That He Should Realise That He Must Realise That She Was The One.....

And then I brushed my eyes... Yawn! It was A dream!!! :)
But A Beautiful One...
Coz may be....
May be....
I'm One Of The Girls Of What I described... :) :) :)





I dedicate this to all the people who made me love travelling... My Dad Especially.. :) :)

I haven't travelled all across the world... But I have visited a few places... A small Insight Of What I felt About all the places....

LOVE DALES....

Do You Know This Place? I Half Bet You don't!!! Its In India... Quietly nestled In The Nilgiri Hills... A serene Calm Yet Beautiful Place...
Don't Expect Me To List Out What You Can See In There... Absolutely Nothing :D Thats what I Love about it... During The Peak Of The Day, You Can See Blue-Birds And Woodpeckers Shimmering In The Sky... Tick-Tock-Tick -Tock.. A small Woodpecker Busy At Work... :) And In The Night Trust Me... The Sight Of The Full Moon Is Mind Blowing... :) :) I Could Just Witness It Once... But I Would Definetly Love To Be There Once more With My Special Someone..... :) The Place Is Still My Top Favourite....

NAGPUR.....

My second most favourite place... Where My Mother Grew Up And My Early Part Of Life Was Spent..... Nagpur-City Of Oranges... I Still Remember Those days... The place is awesome (N I shall Definetly list some of places You Have To go :D) I Still Wonder If My Faint Dream Of Being A Doc Or My Respect For Medicine Profession Was Instilled When I Visited The Tuberculosis Hospitals... Life And Death.... :'( Anyways! After That The Most Important Place To Be Visited In Nagpur is.... Is... Dinshaws ice-creams :P Not The Parlour... But the Vendor Outside it...I still think bhaiyya You will remember me... As a Kid I Used To Go And Ask... "Ek kap do na bhaiyya... Mummy se paisa le lene baad me... pleeejjjj :D" means"plz gimme a cup... get the money frm mum later...please!!! :P He Was A Guy Who Was Suffering For A Morsel Of food... Yet Used @ gimme 2 icecreams free everyday! I still remember Your tears bhaiyya.. When I gave You My Dads New shirt :D Ya ya As I kid I Was Quite Funny!!!:P :D But Someday I Hope Ill Get That Ice-Cream Again :)

Well... Moving On... The Next Place To Be visited is FUN AND FOOD VILLAGE... I still remember that theme park.. It Was the first and last time and when I went On a water-ride... I still fear to go one... But Its an awesome place.... A must go For all Theme park addicts...

Then A restaurant.. I dont remember the name... (SORRY!!!) The Most Awesome lawn restro... I Love lawn restros... :) I Still remember how I cried When The Mickey Mouse came to shake hands with me...lol... Memories Are Awesome :) :) Anyways... and the white inn in there.. still lingers In My dreams... ;)
Then The next one is Bardi... Thats A shopping area... I still love the underground mart in there.... :) Lovely but Crowded place.... :) :)

Missing Nagpur Big Time!!!!!!!

Kanyakumari...

I admit very,very frankly... South India Is NOT the best place for travelling... But This Ones Good...

The Southern Most Tip Of India... The Nature-Replenishing And Truly Awesome Heaven....
I Never Really Stayed In The Place.. Just Visited Once...
I'm Quite Obssessed with Waters You Know... :) The Meeting Place Of The Three Oceans... Its The Zenith Of Beauty... Cruise For 10 Mins In A Boat.. You Will Find The Vivekanadha Rock... The Ultimate Place For Calmness... Just A View... You Will Definetly Feel You Could Even Die To Be There... Life Is Nothing... Just Like The Waves Trying to reach high and high But eventually fall down... But People Are Amazed When It Reaches The Maximum Height... The Same Way When They Feel When You Acheive Your Goal :) :)

Next The Temple By The Shore.... The Reason Why The Place Is Called Kanyakumari... The Goddess... Who Was Rumoured To Be Wearing A Diamond Nose-Ring... Which Was So Brilliant and Shining That The Sailors Misunderstood It For LightHouse And Often Ended Up Hitting The Rocks At The Shore.. :| So The Ring Was Removed And The Whole Temple Was Surrounded By Huge Walls On All sides... :D

People Love To Watch The Sunrise And Sunset At This Place... It Is Very Famous For That... It Is Mind-Blowing To Watch The Whole Sky Turn Unanimously Orange... And The Reflection Of It In The Water... The Ripples... Tingle You To The Core..................!!!!!! :) :)

THIS IS JUST THE BEGGINING OF MY TRAVELOGUE COLLECTION AND WAIT TILL I START ABOUT MY HOME-TOWN... YOU WOULD DIE READING IT... AND I PROMISE THAT...
Kudos!!
Keep travelling... :D :D
^ -^




Rains are... The Most Beautiful drops I guess That God Ever Created In Nature... I Love Rains...!! The Very Sight Of Them Makes Me Feel Good... As If
They Have Been Sent Just To Wipe My Sorrows...
They Have Been Sent Just To Wipe My Tears...
They Have Been Sent Just To Wake Me Up From The Past....
They Have Been Here Just for Me!!!!!!!!:) :)

And Yeah! They Are The Most Refreshing Parts Of Nature... The Most Softest Things :)

The Rainy Seasons Are Here
And So Are My Fears...
Someday They Grew In My Heart Untold..
That I May Lose Your Hold...
The Sky Grew Grey Today...
And I Could Feel The Surroundings Gay...
And I Peeped Out Of My Window...
Will I Ever Be Adored??
Someday You Will Be Here By My Side..
Someday You Will Find That I Am The One...
Someday The World Around You Will Change..
Someday When It Rains...
Someday When It Rains...
You May Feel The Change... :)
And Then It would Be....

Forever And Always... !!

And
The Song Of The Rain which I sing..
Until I Run Out Of Voice...
Are You Able To Listen??
I Hope You Do...
I Really Hope...

Splash...

Oh!It Rains In Your Bedroom..
Everything is Wrong!
It Rains When You Are Here
It Rains When You Are Gone...
Cuz
I was There When You Said...
FOREVER AND ALWAYS..... :) :) :)

P:s Tried A Wee Bit Of Poetry :P :P Hope It Isnt That Bad :D
^-^







My Besssssssssssssssssssssss Friend :) :)

I don Know Why Am Writing this... But she knows.... :D

When we met.... Neither did lightning strike nor did it rain... Nor did we cry.. Just the school bell rung ;) :P :D

The Most silent creature On this earth... Sometimes thats good coz I speak A lot.... :D Seriously... Whoever said "Opposites attract" must have read our life story before... :)

The time when I met her for the first time... I did not like much of her :P she was very silent... thts y... And she did not like me because She thought I was A very Head-Weight Hi-fi girl....

I remember very well... We became close Owing to Physics laboratory... :D (In the end U c baby... There Was Some Use Of staying Hungry In The Evening And Attending those Useless classes:P) She was silent I said... (I'm reminding U the umpteenth time I know I know:P) But she was Intelligent... I noted... Even when We Never understood Anything practically... We were Conceptually Very very strong... She wasn't Like the rest Of the Yet-Another-Type Girl In my class... She was different.. Yet Those days I never knew what was special About her... I mean To My LOGICAL :P (her favourite word in my vocabulary) mind she seemed like the rest... A Girl Who could cuddle With A Mills andBoons series.. And A Pink Teddy bear... Imagining of rainy days.... With Someone special... ^-^

I'm Gona Get Killed For That Last Line I wrote!!!!!! :P :D

She Was Unique... Even though she was Like the rest of girls... To describe her smile... (Many Important People Have Commented About It :D I guess I better add A small note :P) A Thing Which Lightened Many Of my days... :) Thats true... Sometimes I think baby... Its Coz Of you I begun to enjoy Life... And My temper Went Down... :)
Those Were The Days... When We Used To Chat Chat And Chat.... But Know whats the Most Amazing thing... We Never Agreed In Anything....

People... lol... We Never Agreed In That... Whom She Used To Call Good... I Used To consider sick.... I was very selective about what I said To whom... And when... She was Like that... But though People Who Were Close To Me Were Equally Trusted By Her... I never trusted People Who were Close to her... Especially one... The One Guy... Whom She Considered Her Best Friend... I hated Him... Atleast I used To... And Do You Remember Those Fights da?? lolzzz :)

And The Next Thing Which We Used To Argue Is Heart Vs. Brain... When ever We Discussed About Characters Of People... And The Way They Behaved With Others... Their Relationships... :)
I Used To say:
"How the hell can they be together?? They Are so different!! She doesn't even think logically..."
madams Reply Used To be:
" Think By heart da... Switch Off Your Brain.... "
I never Believed that dear... But Today You know The Thing Is what You Know... You Always Had My opinions In Your Important Decisions... And I Always Had A Word With You In Whatever I did... So Heart And Brain Were Always Balanced... Right??? :) :) Its Trueee... :)

AnD You Remember Those Times IN The Last Bench... Well.. Those Who Sat Next To Us Had No Idea What We Were Doing Anytime !! :D How We Used To Spend Time Commenting Amidst The Sessions... :D How We Used To Share Everything... Everything!! And How You Used To Control Me Every Time I Wanted To Tell The Other Two That It Wasn't Funny!!! :D It Was Like I Never Would Talk To Them Again... But You Convinced Me That I Had To Be Nice To People... Even If They Weren't Being EXACTLY Nice To Me!!! :) :D N Till Today I'm Talking To Them Cuz You Said So..... Nothing Else!

And There Are Many Things Which I Must Attribute To You... Many Things Which I Have In My Life Are All Hers... :) Yeah Yeah I Just Meant Those Key chains Nothing else... :P We Are So Close Now-A-Days That She Predicts me... Very Easily... I Predicted her Since Ages So Thats No Big Deal.... :) :P

And She Is The Nicest Girl On This Earth... Even If You Back-stab Her She Wont Ask You A Thing... And Give You The Same Smile... I Hate You For That... You Shouldn't Always Be Good... Because Everyone Doesn't Deserve That...Like I do :P :)

A Hug Of Hers Is Worth Everything... The Day Dad Was Down.. And She Came To Meet Me For The First Time She Saw The Emotional Side Of Mine... I Still Remember That Hug Of Yours... Both Of Us Are The Same... She Used To Hide Her Emotions Behind Her Smile... Myself Behind My Supposed To Be Strong-Girl Attitude... :D

I really Liked You For One More Reason... You Loved Me for The way I Was... Nothing More Or Nothing Less :D :) :) ^-^

THANK YOU DEAR...
Hope To Have More Rocking Times Ahead :) :) :)
Love You Smiley...!!


This blog is just meant for one....... The only one...... :)

I asked Your permission... Hope you like it :)

I've been wanting to write out whatever I thought about you for a very long time... Afraid how you may react to it, I postponed it... But now... I'm convinced that you wouldn't take it so bad... :)

So, Right now You Must be thinking who is she talking about... In fact, thats what I am Thinking... What is Our relation.... Are We friends? If so, Then Why Am i not writing about the rest of my friends ( ok... I agree i don have many).... A Sibiling??? nahhhh... Never... I never had that idea When I talked to you.... A Classmate...lol... All we did when we were in class is criticize each other... Thats not classmate!!! An Enemy... Yea mebbe... My best friend smiley would love to say... Enemy... Dear Enemy... Like People Sometimes Use the term 'Sweet Idiot' :D well.... I Remember Someone telling me That All Relations Don't Have Names... May be its one such...... A Companion, A Friend, A Relation, A Listener........ Whatever :DAll In One And Just One for All Relations.......... :) :)

Soo... I guess You got a clean idea of whom I'm Talking about.... :P Its sometimes strange you know... You know someone for ages.... And never cared about him/her... And suddenly they seem so important... that the rest of the world seems practically non-existing!!! As I Read in a novel....
"I LOOKED AT HER... SHE WAS BRUSHING A HAIR FROM HER FORE-HEAD... AS SHE USUALLY DOES... SUDDENLY I HAD AN URGE TO TELL HER THAT I LIKED HER... SUDDENLY SHE SEEMED TO BE THE MOST CUTEST WOMEN ON EARTH.... SUDDENLY, AS IF, AS IF, A LIGHT HAD BEEN THROWN ON HER IMAGE IN MY MIND................................ "
You never know what happens the next moment in your life... trust me.... I had known you for ages I guess... You know the fact... We hated each other... Or atleast I did... (I know m gona get one from you for this...lol anyways!) I hated you... not because I was against you... Or that you were that bad... But coz U got soo much Hype that irritated me.... lolzzzzz... :D
As time went on many of my best friends, went on completely agreeing your views, appreciating your works.... I must tell you... I was possessive about my friends... Sort of Added Fuel To The fire.... I begin to hate you even more for stealing them....

IT IS QUITE STRANGE YOU KNOW... THAT MY HATRED WAS COMPLETELY IN CONTROL AND I NEVER DID AVOID YOU.... THATS STRANGE.... :O :O

It so happened as time passed by... I realized my friends were true.... But by the time... Our ways changed....

Must I mention in here.... I don't know... :D But yeah it is true... I had been suffering from pangs of guilt... Guilt that I misunderstood You... Unnecessarily.... Many @ times.. I probably just over-reacted... :( Talking to you those days I completely understood that You had no idea... what my first impression about You was... It is even more strange that I was secretly worried, If You came to know about all this... What exactly You would Think about me..... I had no idea... But I was sure of one thing- that You ought to know... I'm not the sort to move around feeling guilty... :) And I'm happy that You Took it Jovially... Anyways It isnt as if You were giving me A Nobel price Or A miss- perfect-goody-goody-girl award... You would've even scolded me....... :D i knowww... :) :)

So then... I entered hostel life... perfectly @ peace(atleast when i went) lolzz... Like some people believe that open mind is good for accepting anything... Note carefully : I said "SOME PEOPLE BELIEVE" :D Well as You Say It is better we live our lives the way we want to.... As long As we dont disturb others... :)

Times became very tough.... The picture which I thought About my life was shattered... Shattered.. Shunned By people Whom I thought would adore me... Busy Lives.. Busy people... And me Doomed In Loneliness.... :'( even today When I read Those Initial Catastrophes.. Trust Me My Eyes Get filled With Tears... Both Of Gratitude And Pain..... Only You Knew The True Story... And You Weren't Enjoying Either... Though You Tried To Convince People.. You Let Me View The True Image......... :)

FOR THOSE TIMES,THANK YOU...... :)

It all begun as casual conversations.... You begun them... By appreciating things which I never knew I was good at... Anyways It was obvious... :) Wasn't it...??? It begun describing the whole day... The Problems... Endless... Waiting for the hols to come... Insight into The past... Cherishable moments... Fleeting memories.. Few Fights... Long Conversations... Endless Reassurances... Concern.. Appreciation... And Now I have only One word to add to this.. GRATITUDE...... :)

I still remember every word You spoke... Continuously Telling me that it is better to just read people and Move ahead... Not to Even give A thought Why they are that way... Coz everyone aint perfect.... Like the way we are..... :P

And The Title..... "MISS.RESPONSIBLE HEAD..." The responsibility... which I used to hate... Being the eldest... Became My pleasure.... :) Appreciation... The Magic Of Words... Which Makes Peoples attitude change... I used To think... :)

Concern... Thats what... When I fainted Once... Out Of hunger... :| Concern... Concern... I knew the definition Then.... I knew It then... And The Way You reacted... Is Still In My Mind... Every Word of it......

And Of course... Endless, Pointless, Useless Conversations... Which Still Is My Favorite Part... Still lingers in my memory..... Stupid plans... silly nicknames.... And Your Information about movies... And My information about Books.... :D both added the sugar-and-spice to the conversation... :) Niceee... :)

Your Endless Useless Attempts To Make Me feel Jealous(remember its not dat easy :D) Chechi :P Now You must be remembering!!!!

When I was sure I couldn't Do anything... The time This year when I had to support dad For the first time... I was sure that I wasn't strong enough for that... I needed support.... Thank You For standing By My side those times.. :)

Then.... Then... So on and on... Your Anger!!!!!! I forgot to add a note about that... A small mess... In The Long journey... Remember For that simple thing... Only I know How Difficult It was for me To cope up those two days.... :'( And then the misunderstanding cleared.... I cried The first(and hopefully last) Time coz of You.... :) And Then The Request And Promise... A Good Memory,right????



Then Another Wave Of Indifference... Back home... A Way too busy life for which I hated Many of my friends... And How much I had to Take it... :( Then I completely And very frankly said how Much It hurt mee.... And I was In fact Astonished To Note that You understood... (I really was convinced That You would never get my point for all the gold in arabia!!) But You Proved Me wrong.... Once again!!!!! During the Solar Eclipse... That was the Best day I Had In My Life... It Wasn't a great deal either... But, You know, It is just small acts that make people happy... Ecstatic... Atleast It made me feel soo.... :D

Whats the word they use... TRUST.... Every time to think about it now... Only I said "don't say this to anyone..." You never said that to me... of course, except that life time plan :) Don't worry... I haven't said it to A soul... So That was what Trust meant.... I knew then.....

So.... Its Long aint It?????? Can go on describing...I guess:D But I'll Wind it up right here....
THANK YOU.....................
You May Read This And Say "WHAT?" lol Like the way You Imitate me Over the phone! :) ^-^

Words can Never say How Much I owe You.........

THANK YOU...................................................................!
P:S-Hope you Liked it ^-^
:) :)


I still remember that day...... :) :)


It Was The Day After My Physics Paper.... Morning Had Exams... Afternoon... I Came And Had My Lunch... And Was Wondering What To Do....

What To Do.... My Roommates Were Sleeping... Sigh Wish I could... Lost Sleep For A Week!! Not Due To Exams... But Because Of These Roommates.... :(

I Was Still Wondering What To Do... One Of My Best Friends Called Me For A Walk.... A Walk?! Sounds good enough for the time being i thought, And I headed For her proposal....... :)

But Never Did I think That That walk would be the best of My Life............. :)

We As Usual headed To The entrance of our college.... Mind You being a hostlite we never go there.... We usually prefer the backdoor entries :P :P So As Usual, I took Snaps Of the entrance at Different ANGLES As One Of my buddies commented earlier =)))
Seems That particular day There were part-time admissions going on..... So many housewives were coming and enrolling themselves in courses.... My College Is Always filled with some or other activity.... The Best Thing I like about it.... :)

So Then People came to ask about the college to us.... Tired of giving explanations We left the campus....

AND THERE BEGUN OUR BEAUTIFUL WALK...................... :)

Mind You There was No plans.... We were always curious about the Surroundings of college... coz it was all forest-types... No body knew where it would lead to... Just like some people have philosophies about life...lol.... anyways! WE went to the highway.... And we visited a deserted temple over there.... It was all in ruins... I felt that the next time i would sneeze the whole building would fall over my head...=))))

It was kind of quirky... So we decided to return... Time was 6 by then... And It was A Dusky sorta wintry evening... I practically cuddled in my jerkin :D Flashlight in one hand.... I decided to explore...... :D
We knew a small lane by the side of our college which lead to the interior of the campus.... So we decided to take it... I wasnt quite sure about the lane... But lets Do it i thought.... :D If not now then when ??? :D :D So I walked through The lane.... My friends hands were shivering... Sigh... A Typical Lamb... :) A cute one though ;) I Held her hand very firmly... And we headed... Once we went into the forest There was Some Barren land in the middle... Completely surrounded By thick tall eucalyptus trees....
IT HAD BEEN A LONG WALK......

I decided to rest for A while... we sat down on the ground... Above us we could see The Moon lite... Shady And Peeping Out Between the trees... Sum Butterflies n glow worms... Twinkling Around as if Happy to have the special guests... And Some bees... some mosquitoes :P Some creepy crawly things... Under a tree beneath the moonlight... A friend By The side.... What else is needed????? :) :) :)

Then Breaking My thoughts she reminded me that we had to go.... So With A heavy heart I trotted slowly....

I must tell you the truth i was dead scared... It was pitch dark... I couldn't See even My friends face properly... And we were surrounded By trees On All sides... I Had No i dea which direction to head... I Just went on... I was sure I wouldnt Head In the Wrong direction... Instinct What they call....

I WAS ENGROSSED IN MY THOUGHTS>>> SHE SCREAMED!!!!!!

I was scared Hearing her scream... :D
She said " The moon The moon..."
I Looked Up The moon Was fine.... Romantic enough..lol I thought ;)
She agin interrupted My thougt " The moon... Its Moving!!!!!!"
I Looked Up again ... It wasn't moving... But Anyways Physics And astronomy Could Prove that she was true..... :D Being engineers We Ought To now :D I yawned and said "Yeah, It Moves"
ALL THIS TIME I WAS LOOKING UP WHEN I LOOKED AT HER SHE WAS POINTING DOWN......

IT WAS A SMALL POND!!!!!!!! :D

I ran and looked Into it... I Could see my reflection... It was Amazing... Little tiny fingerling's Swimming in it.... frogs croaking... :) Moon In The sky... A small set of stair case which led inside.... :D I looked ahead... Tiny lights were seen...!!!!!
OMG! thats my hostel :D
I FINALLY, FOUND MY WAY!!!!!!!!! :)
With a sigh of relief i headed Towards it.....

I was Thinking.....
Life Is Still on...
WITH TALES YET TO BE UNTOLD......................
^-^ ^-^
:) :)

Hostel Life..........!! :D


Don't know where to begin this topic... Or what was the title that i gave teenage is teen ache :D So whats the relation between the two.... :P :P

This Is Dedicated To All The People Of My Hostel... Who Keep Laughing Over The Fone, Crying Over The Fone, Talking To The fone (mind the language talkin TO the fone... Not talkin On the fone :D)..... Fone Fone And Fone... :D

So,Awesome isn't it....? Technology has Its own use... It helps people to express their emotions... :D

I really dont have the vaguest idea... Has it become that very essential that you must talk to someone.... Has it become that very essential that You Must Share Things With Someone.... Has It Become That Very Essential That You Must Liste Their Voice.... And What Do You Call that relationship?

A Best Friend??????

A Crush???????

A Infatuation????

A True Love?????

A Long Distance Relation????

A short Distance Confusion????? :P :P

I Dont know... :D :D To Tell You The Real truth I thought In My college... There would be classification like cbse, icse, anglo indian matric... blah blah.... Now It is like... well skip it... :D So even our ideologies vary in a very very different way.... For instance, Their commitment in love meant marriage, settlement, full faith in hubbies... (blind faith, real blind trust me...!!) And Such things.... Happiness for the loved ones more than the oneself, one's aim... And ones life.... Planning and living is the way people lead tell them to do... they follow it.... With A devotion, Faith And Trust.... That Mind You Has Won My Respect! :) :)

City girls.... Guys mus've scrolled down to the end of this article... :D I know you people... :P For us everything begins With understanding listening... And Rest Next.... Ones Life must be spent the way we want.... Achievement Of all aims... Winning the respect of people.... And leading a life which was built by you....
ERRR...
Excuse me....
Got to attend a Call.... :P lolzz
Bubyeee


Duh.... Duhed x-(

I Don even know why the hell I am writing this as an article :D
Well, Many Aspiring Students Want To Study In This Reputed University.... So Here It Goes!!!!

Early morning 4'oclock, sounds of clattering plates... trala! Time to get up baby... Zzzz... Good morning *yawn* I pull my bedspread n peep out.... 7 more in my room sleep.... *yawn* Hit the bed again *ZZzzzzz.......*
Exactly fifteen minute later....

(Peep from the bed...) Has The sun come into the room? *yawn* Oh! tube light... :D i practically scratch to find my mobile.... Got it! :) First smile achievement of the day yay!! Go Outside n see the climate... awesome.... jus stroll around..... :) n sleep out... *sigh*

At 6:00:
Time for milk.... yeah... I peep into my room.... Seven Nerds... Hot Topic Discussion Of The Day.. The Bomb Dropped In Hiroshima... Was it Atom Or hydrogen Bomb.... * sigh* *yawn* :D I Go Out And think Hot Milk Would Be better Than This Discussion.... :P Leaving Behind The frantically yelling Seven nerds ( asking for my opinion on the supposed-to-be-hot topic discussion, whatever!!!) I go for milk..... I love the milk back in my hostel you know, thats the most palatable viand over there(whatever that means anyways!) I head to My Favourite Hangout.... A bench Under A tree.... From where Sunrise view is Breath-taking... I Cuddle up on it... Then My Best friend comes over there.... My Kitty! The One who manages all my leftover milk.... Sorta business partners we are ... Milk Drinking business :P
After making sure all my business is over [;)] I head on to my room.... Ouch! I stepped on something... what was that? err.. never mind... again whatever :D

At 7:00:

Time To bath..... Sigh Queue.... Anyways... ok.... Finally searching for my bucket among the 8... AH! what fell down now?! soap boxes x-( cant arrange them now.... *sigh* leave the mess for my roommates 2 clear.... Going to bath....

At last taken bath.... Duty over yay!! Enter the room... There there.... My Make up beauties begin... sigh... I do Wonder Doesnt it tire them? :D It tires me though... Putting my hair as a pony-tail, much to the disgust of my roommates who want to try their experiments in hair-do in my hair... duh! wrong call mate..., i head to the mess... breakfast :D

At 7:30:

Breakfast is of timetable type in my college... I dont know what the heck the term means... gotto learn the butler english :D i remind myself... wateva again... Get the crap stuff on my plate... n sit and eat.... opposite to me would be people.... Whisphering loud enough for me to hear... You Know this girl... (psssst...) ( laugh loudly) only girl in automobile right? Again whatever... nice breakfast i mutter to myself... And head to the washing area.... sigh... sigh... work over for the day... take my college bag.... n dump all the books i find in my room... Who cares in government college.... I bid my roomies a good bye... who stilll are experimenting with their looks... shit... why dont I break the mirror.... *sigh*

At 8:00

On My Way To College.... I Randomly look at everything around... Amazing... Birds chirping... Sun shine on My face... Wow! My kitty Comes to me.... I bid her a happy good-bye... There someone is concerned about me... The only someone i think... Jus then *beep* *beep* message received.... Huh....? Yeah... I believe There is sum one Else also concerned about how I am... :) I happily reply And Continue My trot to college.... I reach My class... And take a deep breath... I tell Myself.... Easy girl! You can do it....
I Just then understood what would be the mental state Of soldiers are when going to battlefield... And even if I dint underatnd that.... M sure Mine is still Worse..... There A guy stares At Me... Sigh... Havent You seen A girl before... I was half tempted to ask... But remained silent.... Seeing Me walk in there is a profound silence,,,, *sigh* I go to the first bench And again deep breath... Ok baby Its over..... Thank God its over..... :D

At 8:30:

Wow... classes begin :D Some crap thing on the board.... People stare at it having no idea... :P same here mate.... Physics... Sigh... Why must it be in engineering I wonder!!! Chemistry.... :P Analtyical techniques... Frankly, i would have told my prof. to teach the ways my classmates could save an arrear... Instead of this techniques... :D Mathematics... The only subject which i admire in my college.... Awesome :D Fcp or foc... watever... who knows... My prof has the vaguest idea of what he is speaking anyways.... And Then english.... Active period... People ask good doubts like should we use caps while starting a sentence.,,,,, ;D rofl!! tears emerge from my eyes due to laughter... :P My mobile goes on then *beep* *beep* huh msg again.... wow.... I reply ;) with a wide grin :P morning classes over.... yay!! anothe achievement..

At 9:00

Lunch time... Nothing yummy... Ordinary food... what they call here as survivable meal... yellow water... called sambhar.... Trust me folks... You wouldnot eat it even If You lived alone in a desert and that was The only thing You got.... I gulp it... Without even seeing it.... Drink water... elders say... well, its useful in my case.... :) lunch over....

I then msg again :D Lunch over... Ok fyn... lets go ahead... I go and wear My Uniform... I look at the mirror... A watch man would look better I think :D ok... anyways i grab a note and leave...

At 2:00

LAbs.... um,... are my real show time... People stare nat me like.. what ? come again! you ought to be kidding.... A girl? no she cannot do it... :D And i happily prove that they are wrong.... ;) N then viva... :P thts all ok all well and fineeeeee :) :)

At 5:00:

lab over,,,, yay! i head to the canteen to eat something good... Alone... All i can find over there are couples :P I wonder what would happen if cafe coffee day was opened in my college :D I Just act as if I am blind... And silently munch ;D Duty concious :) :P

At 6:00:

The only time of the day when I speak.... frankly I forgot how My voice sounds also :'( I call my mom.... ya mom... had lovely meal... ya mom... everyone is talking to me... ya mom! of course I can handle My class mates... ya mom! yes mom... i love this place... *SIGH* I hate lying :) I Hate this life so much... Pessimistic time.... Duh... I cry I cry My heart out.... Nobody to offer a shoulder ... nobody to listen.... A few minutes later... I shut up. ok enough baby.... :)
I sit and read.... To avoid the glaring looks of my roomies... That when will u touch your book thing....

At 7:00:

Dinner time.... :D Always curd rice... i hate that thing... but i feel damn hungry... who cares... i chat with my roommates and eat.... :) gala time... I await this part of the day... To tell you the truth.... :) :)

Then Till 8 Mp3 all good songs.... Maybe sometimes I chat with my seniors.... :) ;) Im close to them u know...lol

At 8:00

I get My call.... I speak my heart out... whatever comes to my mind... whatever I think, without even thinking subconscious... I spell Out everything... What i feel like... And I feel light... Very glad.... Cool.... the conversation would be long.... I guess... :);)

At 11:00:

teaching time!! I teach My roommates come Up[ to me... Ok i teachg them... They ask silly doubts i clear em... Then hit on to books.... Sometimes i message.... Till the time is two... the same thing happens.... I think... i speak... I sigh........ Before i sleep I think

"Thank god! One more day is over...." (cry) (" One More day will come soon")

Amidst the tears i sleep...... And then, Oh You know that now... forget it :D

A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He'll call to say goodnight or just cause he is thinkin of you. He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.


Somewhere between the procrastination... and the homework... and the incessant forwards... and the friendships... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes... Somewhere between the phone calls to old friends... And the "I miss yours, the "I love yours, and the "What are we doing tonight?"... And somewhere between all of the changing and growing... Somewhere between the classes... And the skipping classes... And the studying for tests... And the pretending to study for tests... And the downright NOT studying for tests... I forgot... I forgot what high school is all about. I forgot what it meant to cry... I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you happy... And that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart... I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future... I forgot that you can't control falling in love... And that you can't make yourself fall in love... I learned that I can love... I learned that it's okay to mess up... And it's okay to ask for help... And it's okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day... I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just can't have. I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't the parties or the drinking or the hook-ups... It's the friendships, which means taking chances... I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we most need to talk about... I learned that letters from friends are the most important things... And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. But, basically, I just learned that my friends... Both old and new... Are the most important people to me in the world. AND... without them, I wouldn't be who I am today. So this is a thank you to all of my friends... For always being there. And even if we're not on good terms or we have lost touch... I still care for you... Always and forever love all you guys.


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