Got It In An E-mail... Awesome... Aint it :)
"eh sunder desh apni haieh aakash hamara haidesh prem ki ugiaaron nehumko aaj pukara hai.bikhare huye yahan hai heeraiyahan ratan ki kan haikhanijon ki kodar yahan parjaldhar hai dhan dhany haisone-chandi ki dal vaibhavshram ka bada sahara hai..................."desh prem ki ugiaaron ne humko aaj pukara hai...........................ek rah par chale sabhi milmanzil apni ek haibane erade pakke apneniyat apni ek haipath ke badha se kabrakarkab apna man HARA hai..............DESH PREM KI UJIAARON NEHUMKO AAJ PUKARAHAI.................................................. :) :)To MY InDia :)
Hmm... You Must Be thinking If It Is Personal Why Does She Put It In a Open Website.... Actually Yeah You are right... Why Must I? But Speaking Frankly... Just Wanna put down whatever I feel... My pages In personal diary is practically getting over... :D So Going the 21st Century Way... M Blogging it :)
It Is All going To be about.. Stuffs Which I badly wanted in life... Stuffs Which I've been deprived of....
Thankfully... I've got the best parents in the whole world... The best... No doubts about that... A Dad... For whom his daughter is the best...well for the rest of the world... Im trying to prove :D Who lemme do things my own way... Even I wasnt completely let off the hold... But I was completely ruled over either... My space was defined... :)
A mom... for whom I was the inspiration... In many ways... Coz She was a lil girl when she was at my age.... Me... Am A Dare-Devil :D :D she loves me for that....
Lets move ahead with what I wanna say,... Even as a child I was considered responsible.. I always wanted to be amidst people... I don have sibilings or cousins who were of my age... With whom I could share my feelings... Neither did I have any close relatives..... I still remember those painful days... When I was A kid and i used to cry when my friends use to say "m Goin to my aunts place dear... Hey this pen... Aint it Cool.? My Uncle gave me on my bday!" i always wanted to scream and say "shut up... I don wanna know... My uncle would never do that......." :'(
I always wanted to have an elder bro... who would pat on my back when I'm successful... who would take care of me from all the rude guys... Who would say "no sis... You cant do that... Lemme do It for you...." who would get me the nicest goodies in the whole world.... Who would say that I was the best The way I was...
I wanted to have An elder sis... Who could assist me in my professional tasks and guide me through all my relations... Tell me that I'm not capable... Hold my hands and help me make through the mess......
All These Things I do Alone Now......................................................
I wanted A place in my friends life that would reassure me that I can never be replaced... Whenever I told Something about them, I wished they would say... WOW! no one can get me the way you do.... You really know me.... NOoooooo.... I never heard that from anyone... All I got was.... You know what Yday... My another friend commented the same ... :') :'(
And right now... My Life is in a catastrophic mess.... Things are taking shape from Bad To Worse To Worst.... :(
Away from home... I Thought Hostel was A supposed-to-be Home away from home... But My roomates..
For some I'm a Genius... Ought to maintain a safe distance...
For some... I'm A weirdo.... They Can Never get what i Speak :D.....
For Some... I'm From Chennai... Enough Reason To stay away..
(I don get this thing though personally THOUGH.... Are all girls from chennai bad... ?? Do all of us need guys :D I still wonder)
For Some... Im not their friends... Coz I don say My personal stuff! (I need my space ppl... cant tell you Everything :D)
For Some... Even After knowing that there are going to be no girls in auto... choosing the same dept means... I wanted to be close to guys...
(If You Had Atleast Half Of The Passion Which I had... You Never Be Dumb Enough To Think This Way...)
This was the most hurting comment... I Ever got btw :)
And For some... Some other petty reasons.... Like I love to debate,... They meant I was a Squabbler... A silly kiddo... With no clear head..lol ( If You Meant What You HAve As A Clear Head... M Glad My Brain network Is A mess :D)
Thats all... Don wanna mention the rest....................................................!
Class... The Worlds.. Boredom-redefined... i don know why those people even chose engineering... And Have a useless attitude of why must girls be in my dept... Forcing Me To Quit My Dept As Soon As Possible.. ( I WOULD NEVER DO THAT) Making Me Feel Miserable... Lonely.... All In Vain! :D
Atlast.... There Was A Real Ray Of Hope.... Amidst all these Heck tunes.... But Right Now... I Don't Have The Vaguest Idea Of What State It Is In......................... :D
And At The End Of Everyday I end Up Listening to Hillary Duff and Taylor swift..... Esp This One....
Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me
There Are Many Things I Could Add Over Here... But I Dont Want To....
So Regards..
SWATHI.I
(I guess the last I stands For INDEPENDENT..lol )
Love And Live life
:)
